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Friday, November 20, 2009

danger driving

I hate hate hate SOME drivers on the road.
They don concentrate on their driving instead came honking at me for no f***ing reason.
While waiting to cross the road,
They honk at me when i did not even move a inch
or shows them any signals of "im gonna cross the road now. Run me over, u idiots"
So its either they honk at me or they shine their big f***ing headlights on me.
They would deliberately switch their headlights to the brightest to prick my eyes,
den they turned it off.

So after they do this, definitely i would turn and look into the car,
issit somebody i know or are they trying to tell me something
maybe things like, "hey, u did not zip ur shorts, or ur eyeliners are imbalance."
So when i turn and looked @ them, they can still f***ing SMILE @ me.
like they had not done anything wrong by doing such stunts on me.
and the worst thing is, i don even know a single of them.
So after they gave me their ugly smiles they would still call my "name" : ah mui
what's that huh? who's ah mui?

i really feel like pointing my middle finger to them la,
but the other vehicles would probably think i am crazy.

Drive saftely la, people. ok ? =)

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

miss - poly dbit gangs

i miss the time where we always run out of the back door to just get lil finger foods during lesson break.
i miss the time we often go to fc 6 just bcos we are lazy to go to other fc.
i miss the time we always go to the mrt route board to decide where we wanna go.
i miss the time when we always stand together in a circle discussing where should we go next, but always jumping out of the topic and start another topic without even realizing ourselves.
i miss the time when we have to wear formal attire to school just for presentation and always being laughed as looking like a waitress.
i miss the time we get chocolate mousse cake after our lunch at the small cafe near the stairs.
i miss the time when we always have to run uphills whenever we are late and end up so breathless in class.
i miss the time when we pass the harddisk around to start installing dota in our computer and shouts "wait for me"
i miss the time when we start packing our bags even b4 the lecturer finishes his last sentence.
i miss the time when we get out of the school, the sky is grey and we will all said " wao, so late already ah"
i miss the time when our projects couldnt hand in on time, we stayed over at one of our frenz hostel and everybody would say. "rest awhile, let's play game, rest awhile, let's sleep for half n hour first"
i miss the time we stay over in school for projects and decide what to eat for dinner later at fc4.
i miss the time when we grumbled about how heavy our bags are when we need to bring lappy for assignments.

i miss, i miss, i miss ... ...

i miss all of you.
loves the 3 years that i spent with you guys in Singapore Polytechnic. =)

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

obstacles

i hate, dislike obstacles
however on the other hand
it made us stronger.
it made us tougher
gain knowledge and experience we can't get from school.

something is bothering me.
its more tougher than i thought.
it was told to me that after u made the first step,
the rest of it would be far more easier.
but, thou i have come to a decision,
another problem is surfacing.

well, again. that question is haunting me again
what if i fail to do, what if i can't manage ?
what if, what if.
i guess, counselling session shall begin on friday again.

sigh.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

a lesson i had from doc

i always thought my job is a waste of my time, life and oh ya my youth ! =x
but after i starting assisting this doctor, his words changed my perception.
he has inspire me.

life is short, don assume that you can't
when things hasn't happen or u have not given a try.
don think that u are a failure
if you spent more time to achieve the same goal than others.
bcos by the end of the day,
u'll both acquire the same thing :
the same knowledge, the same experience.

all successor possess certain similar quality : determination and perseverance
if you don want the life u have now,
u'll have to give ur first step a go.
once u had ur first step,
the subsequents step would be far more easier
we are still young, go achieve things that we want.
don be afraid that u might fail, or u might not do better than others.
back to it, life is short.

well, there's far more things he said.
i cant remember whole lot of it.
but seriously, he enlightened me.

thanks, u just taught me a very precious lesson on life.

Monday, October 19, 2009

no questions, no answers. please

questions, i have no answer to
answer that i don wanna know
if i get it, i'll pretend i know nothing about it.
why is everything so hard to comprehend.

issit bcos of the blues that made me have a thought
for every single things i doubt.
should i face it ?
things is running through, non-stop.
again and again. all negative thoughts
i don want to understand.
tears is running , its hurtful.
i can't speak. my heart is dead.
have no one to turn to. i assume.

im shattered, into bits of pieces

i m falling, hold me?

things i wanna bottom it up in my heart
: 제발, 나를 포기하지 말아요 내가 알고 싶은 답변

Sunday, October 18, 2009

i try to force a smile. i'll try to

its only weekend i look forward to.
i duno what's my life is going through.
as thou, life with no route to the future
i duno what i should do.
i've gt no idea.

thanks to someone,
i remember i've still gt a blog going on.
one that i had abandoned,
one with my promise to continue b4 i started it.

life get so bored with only work revolving
thus only weekend lits me up.
The first book out of gege, we went to midnight movie after sushi dinner @ cine
i always has smile when ge's around.
ge was sick. cough n flu.

on sat, headed over to ah bo's bdae celebration.
hope she had a wonderful day. =)
had a hard time doing the scrapbook.
but its all worth it, i enjoyed doing it thou.
however, the output not very up to expectation
i still hope ginny will like it =x

Seriously i wonder sometimes,
am i really anti-social ?
i cant seems to agree what people did in my working place.
they seems so fake and i hate people who are over-friendly in a way that i f***ing don apperciate it at all. i don wanan give my smile to them,
not even a laugh to their joke they think its funny.
but i can't help to think, or im the one with the problem.
it looks like i m in my world, my own little world.
only certain people are allowed to be in.
whenever i have the time, i'll rather stay in the room and to my things
than into the place where most people gather and gossip.
and btw, their gosspel is seriously nt my topic that i would share with my friends.

things i wanna bottom it up in my heart.
: 나는 나가 혼자있는 사람다는 것을 짐작한다

Saturday, May 2, 2009

JP with amy

went out to high tea with parents ! LOL
so full ~

you know, actually i have a little bias over china lady.
But not anymore after today incident.

Her actions just touches my heart that moment.
i duno why, don ask me ~

bus no. 240 was so packed that people need to stand at the door when the bus arrived.
she and her family boarded the bus first.
then, i was still standing outside the bus, looking at whether there's still any place for me to squeeze in.

Then, while im still outside and passengers are still manoeuvring in the bus.
this lady, said, there's still this girl outside, move in and let her on board.
then she stretched out her hand to hold me and ask me to be careful of the door.
then, i board by her help and was so touched =)
duno what to say but just smile to her.

reached JP, meet up with amy to have our dinner at aijisen
then, she bought a bling bling top and also bought my working shoe finally.

went over to amy's house, its been a long time since i went over to her house. LOL
so many memory flood back. ^^
home ard 11pm, game den chat until now !
<3>

outing tml with usual gang.
SAME! i always look forward to it ~~